FAITH! LIFESTYLE!! INFLUENCE!!!
"I've lived life from a place of fear, wanting to guide, monitor, and control everything. Slowly, I feel I'm becoming a control freak, attached to things and people I don't want to lose because they define me. When they're taken away, I feel broken and hurt. I fight hard to control and keep things together, but it leaves me exhausted and feeling all alone".....Diary Extract
Today, I experienced something that has left me pondering and considering how you might be faring. As I woke up this morning, I was gripped by a profound craving and a deep longing for sexual affection. My emotions were tumultuous, and every feeling seemed heightened by the presence of self.
Dear Amanda,
Today, I woke up with a weary and heavy heart feeling unlike any other day. There’s a gaping hole within me, searching for something to fill it up. Amanda, these times have been harsh. The more I’ve sought fulfillment, the wearier I’ve become. Today, like many other days, I felt a cold longing, simply yearning to pour out my thoughts to the Lord.
You may wonder why I’m reaching out to you like this. It’s because perhaps you, too, are experiencing droughts or yearning for restoration and reconnection with the supreme God. If this resonates with you, Amanda, my prayer, as penned in my journal today, might be the prayer you need to utter.
