I don’t know what the future holds, Nor how tomorrow will play out. I have not figured out how the next decade will look like
But I know Him that knows tomorrow. He has lived in it and has worked it all out.
Today, I am laying it all down. What I think are my best plans, ambitions, and dreams. I am laying it all down. The opinions of people and what they think is best for me. And saying YES to You. Your will. Your plans. Your purposes
Scary as it seems. I choose to say YES. And step out on the water. Not knowing where I am going. But choosing blind faith nonetheless.
I am confident in Your love. And resting on Your promises. With Your hands holding me strongly. I know I won’t fail.
Thank You for loving me. As flawed as I am. For loving me. Even when I didn’t take you seriously. For seeing beyond my inconsistencies. And calling me by that which You had in mind when You created me. Not sure there is anything I can give to pay you back. For Your overwhelming faithfulness. And never-ending mercies. I am never sure of many things, myself included
In 2011, I said YES to you. 12 years down, I am still in You. And You are still with me. You are my biggest achievement and accomplishment.
In the past year, You have messed up my ideologies and redefined what success means. Not measured by awards. Or career. Or titles. Or money. Not even what people define as a purpose-driven or impact-filled life. Full of cheers and affirmations from people.
My biggest goal is not to have my name written on the sands of time. As good as that sounds. It is not to inscribe my name in the hearts of many persons. It is still a noble intention. I only want to hear “WELL DONE, GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT” at the end of it all. Even if it means traveling on the path of obscurity.
I look forward to when I turn 50 or 75, if Jesus tries, to tell the world that I dared to say YES to You and Your will and this is where it got me.
So today, 31st October 2023, I pledge my love, commitment, deepest devotions, time, resources, platforms, brains, giftings, life, and all to You. To Your Kingdom. That’s the best my human mind could come up with to thank You for loving a deeply flawed human like me. I’m going to make You proud!
Thank you, Lord, for staying faithful to me
Thank you for reassuring me that you will be my light even when I sit in darkness. You will be my light when I don’t have light in me. That when I fall, I will rise.
Thank you for teaching me your joy. For teaching me to rejoice in the tiniest wins and the briefest successes.
In the past year, You’ve pulled my focus from the seemingly magnificent expressions of life to the little things that matter; the little things that are instructive of a well-lived life.
You’ve pulled me from living in the future to living and loving in the present. You’ve captured my heart, my priorities, my focus, and the exertion of my efforts.
You’ve pulled me from a desperation to die empty to a contentment to live full. For in living your full life, you exhaust me and empty me into your world…on your terms…in your time.
Thank you for figuring out my life for me. For bringing me to sonship in its truest sense. For voiding the pressure and giving me eagle wings to glide. And soar.
Walking into this new year, my prayer is along the lines of the song by Francesca Battistelli
𝙄’𝙢 𝙖𝙣 𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙩𝙮 𝙥𝙖𝙜𝙚
𝙄’𝙢 𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠
𝙒𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝙤𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩
𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙠
𝘼𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡, 𝙈𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙨
𝙇𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝘼𝙧𝙩
𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙙𝙤 𝙬𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝙤𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩.
Happy birthday Emmanuella.
Excitingly I also started a podcast. you can listen to my first debut here
I covet your wishes and prayers.