Rumbling

Just how shallow are my ideas!

In what ways do I long for this!

Just how broken is my heart!

What a crushing blow this is to my hopes.

Without a doubt, I had given up hope.

To this day, I still don’t know what I’m here for.

A part of me still wants more, but it seems like that will never happen.

I tried to locate the one who would satisfy me, but I was unsuccessful.

My heart and mind were at ease in anticipation of his words, yet I got nothing.

I reached up high, hoping to snag his garter, but I missed.

Lord, have mercy on me.

After that, fighting broke out.

Where is the one your heart says it loves? My heart cried out. He’s not alive anymore; He’s dead.

You have starved me of worldly joys and wants for too long, my body told me, and now I ache for the world and all its luxuries and delights. Find what you need and stop looking for someone who doesn’t exist.

Oh, my mind churned, and I screamed, “Why guide me? Why control me?” Free me up!

then whispers in my spirit, “Wait, He is coming.”

Oh God, how long must I wait?

How much longer must I linger in your company?

Then He gave an answer:

Know that you are not forgotten.

It’s not like I hate you or something.

In my own good time, I shall make everything beautiful.

The circumstances you’re in will not nullify my skills.

Your cycles of time cannot confine who I am.

Though your tears may hurt, they cannot destroy who I am.

In spite of how you may be feeling, my greatness cannot be contained by your emotions.

To the contrary, know that I am always here at your side.

Never will I desert or abandon you; never will I forget you.

So you can see, I arrive soon.

Hold on while I get something. Stay here and wait for me.

It will all turn out well for you in the end, and I’ll be the one who does it

When the time is right, I, the Lord, will make it happen.

Isaiah 60:22

Written by Mary Nwanua